| Changes |
[Jul. 31st, 2007|05:05 am] |
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I've changed a lot quite recently, and it feels like it is for the best. I no longer feel as dependent on external things as I once did, and only now am I beginning to apreciate them the way I used to (maybe more!) I still am weak, I mean I'm only human, but I feel a lot more in touch with my weaknesses as well. I'm just trying to figure out the best way to strengthen them. Sigh... So many "friends" have come and gone, and I don't know who really enjoys MY company. I guess I just had to post something this stereotypical, because when you grow up in a society with so many archetypes present, there are too many ways to fall in line with either the black or the white. I don't to preach, confuse, offend, or anything else of the sort, but I DO want everyone to take a second now if they are reading this to close thier eyes and breath as slowly and deeply as possible and let go of all those emotions they don't need, while holding close everything they do. Id you have something pleasant to say, shallow or deep go right ahead. If not PLEASE just think about your actions before they become bytes! -T |
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| Fair?? |
[Jul. 6th, 2006|02:29 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | that one place | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  a bit pissed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | somafm spacestation soma | ] |
I know this might be a bit late for some of you folks that are already out there, but who out of all y'all is going to/working at fair and where can I find you? ( I might not be there all three days, just in case you want to chill sometime or something, it'd be a good idea to just call me.) |
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| Summer week 3... I think? |
[Jul. 2nd, 2006|11:55 pm] |
yeah, so I feel like I have something really important I should be doing. But then again its kinda summer n stuff. Hmmm, I think working for 3 days a week is worth it for new shizz and guitars + other stuff. I think I need to leave this city for a week or something. go to another country maybe?
I...
think I might
just miss someone...
plz come back? |
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| Hello again LJ? |
[Jun. 21st, 2006|10:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Zepp- Presence | ] |
We haven't had a chance to chat in quite some time, so sup? |
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| where to now? |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|11:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
I'm feel like I'm drifting, maybe away, maybe apart from some people, who knows. Once again I am forced to question existence, both mine nd in basically in general. But its k or whatever. Or something. At least I love everyone again, thats definitly a plus. Who cares if they hurt me, some people always will. But yeah, you are appreciated. |
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| weekendzzz+monday |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|10:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Editors- Lights | ] |
somewhat satisfactory weekend. twas jeremys birthday and it was fun to be with him then and make him happy. also we ran around in the flooded swamp that was university park. stoned. what hippies. pssssssssh. we even had a drum circle at his house. Oh well, being a hippie taint so bad. tisnt so bad. Zane is amazing at the drums, seriously he is a genious. Today. Monday. the 30th. Fun. Pretty good day, well interesting to say the least. Watching/Helping one of you best friend fuck himself very intently and purposefully up is always going to be a bit fucked up. I guess its good I dont mind blood. Thank god for morphine. I love how I dont use complete sentences. I also love how almost noone knows what I am talking bout. Somewhat want to chill after finals/and/or get really wasted, or just want to know what I am talking about. commento por favor and I shall tell all. |
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| happy birthday to me |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|05:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
well I guess I am 17 now. yeah. fuck this shit, life is gay. |
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| it is nothing but the truth |
[Jan. 19th, 2006|07:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Man Reaserch(Clapper) - Gorillas | ] |
To those who deserve this, and you know who you are, I love you. Please don't stop being so dank. ever.
uh
bff maybe?
lol
I went to the dentist high today. He said I was handsome.
I was creeped out, mainly because he is 50, but also because he is not my type.
Tomorow my lip may be pierced.
Yeah, well dank.
oh yeah, + birthday on sunday + happiness in general. |
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| ehhh |
[Jan. 16th, 2006|11:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pessimistic? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my computer buzzing | ] |
Hmmmm, I think I just realized I am not a positive person. In fact I would go so far as to say that I am downright pessimistic. At least I'm not an asshole, but that might be debated as well. |
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| uh, me |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|10:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Artice Monkeys - Whatever people say I am, thats what Im not | ] |
- Owls cannot move their eyes, because their eyeballs are shaped like Tobin!
- Tobin is the only king without a moustache on the standard pack of cards.
- More people are killed by Tobin each year than die in aeroplane accidents.
- If you blow out all the candles on Tobin with one breath, your wish will come true.
- The pigment Indian Yellow was manufactured from the urine of cows fed only on Tobin!
- The first toy product ever advertised on television was Mr Tobin Head.
- Apples are covered with a thin layer of Tobin.
- Tobin will always turn right when leaving a cave!
- Tobin is 1500 years older than the pyramids!
- Snow White's coffin was made of Tobin.
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| ahh, life |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|10:43 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | sublime - 40 oz, ya know | ] |
Yeah, I found out something interesting today, and it made me sad. like more than that it reminded me of the past, and how shit doesn't just away. But we can only work harder, like for ourselves, not for anyone else. But even at the very lowest points in our lives all we can do it go up from there. I mean, I know I did. |
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| party/today |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|11:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | blur- trim trabb | ] |
Uh party last night. twas chill. Well at least as chill as a highschool party can be. Lots of alcohol, and weed. Drama. More alcohol. More drama. Yeah, I don't really know what it was all about anyways. I was just fucked up. really fucked up. but yeah, today, I just chilled with ma homies, went for a dank walk. ya know, the usual. It was a fun day. rather passive, but fun. |
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| that is all. |
[Jan. 7th, 2006|01:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Radiohead- Kid A | ] |
dude, life is fuckin chill. seriously. |
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| please? |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|05:12 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
Uh, does anyone want to have a rave, like just with people that would help set it up and be chill. It wouls most likely have to be at someones house, but I have a few Ideas, as long as I have people that would come, and maybe help set up, bring food "other things" etc...
Well... let me know! |
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| but why? |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|05:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
I've been reading news articles from all over the world the whole night, and it really makes me wonder- why... does... anyone... even... really... care...? Yeah just wondering, it all seems really pointless. |
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| Uh, life? |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|10:42 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blur - On your own | ] |
I am so confused. I have no idea how I really feel about anything, seriously. Like my emotions have taken control of everything, and now I am starting to hurt people I care about, but mainly myself. I kind of feel, I dunno, becoming a person I son't want to be. Or at least I feel like it. I just hope I don't ruin my life. I don't really want to go back to South, I mean, I have friends there, but thats not really a good enough reason to go there. I am jealous of everyone elses life. I just hate mine, when I have so much to appreaciate. I mean I do, oviously not enough though. I need to correct things before they get too fucked up, or else life will really be shitty, like reaaaaaally shitty, and I don't think I could handle that, ya know. Weeeellllllll I dunno. I just don't know. |
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| I need to sleep. |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|09:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blur- Tender | ] |
I dunno dude. today was pretty sweet, but it seems like everyone was out of it, including me. Once again, I felt like a fool. But at least there were some good moments. The world seems lonely, as well as hollow and empty. I want to like draw or something, but I really have no time left to tonight. I've got to go to sleep so I can wake up early, cuz I've got my driving test in the morning. I dunno tomorow could be really good or pretty bad, but I guess I'll have to take it as it comes. Im waiting for that feeling, just waiting for that feeling... to come. Yeah, so I need to sleep now, but its chill, I guess. |
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| no way man? |
[Dec. 27th, 2005|11:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | thankful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jimi Hendrix - Electric Ladyland | ] |
Today was really good. I really liked her family they were dank, and pretty damn funny sometimes too, but in a good way. I really hope I can go out tomorow, I have so much shit I wanna do before berak is over, and it feels like its almost gone. New years. Yes. So much good. I really have to make sure I do all the things I plan, because that will be sweet. I might need some coffee though. And posibly a designated driver, although I might be getting ahead of myself on that one. Anyhow. Good times. I haven't said that for a while, but I really mean it. I really don't have a care in the world. Well I might, but whatever, fuck it man. Anyways, tomorow will be dank too, but I better sleep so I can drive in the morning. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|03:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  passive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nirvana Unplugged | ] |
Well, its christmas, which does'nt me much to me I mean, cuz Im jewish, but I'm still happy that everyone is getting presents that make them happy. I just got some money, not to much, but it's cool, I don't really need it anyways. I might buy more speakers, like I need more. I appreciate having food to eat and a room to sleep in. I wish it were the early 90s. I wish a grew up listening to that music, and watching mtv when it was good. Oh well, life ain't so bad now, with our space age computers and ipods, but somehow I could care less. I am a picture of apathy. I wish I had love, but who knows, I just might. But why spend my time wishing and waiting when I can do things. I am cleaning my room massively right now, and finding lots of disgusting shit under everything, but its kinda entertaining. A new bed would be dank. so would a new tv, but I might get one. It's not new, its like 15 years old, but I dont care, its bigger than mine. Soon my room might be liveable. I am taking my drivers test on thursday, so if that turns out well, it'll make my day. Oh yeah, if anyone wants to do something next week, or like during the rest of break, tell me, because I want to know. |
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| why emancipate when you can emasculate. |
[Dec. 23rd, 2005|12:09 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Sabbath - War Pigs | ] |
Well now, so far break has been interesting. I feel like I'm maturing by the day. I have let go, and yet I feel still attached, I guess this stuff takes time. Sometimes you are so attached to doing things that are unhealthy for you, and I don't mean drugs, or even behaviors, more like thought processes. I mean Bob Marely seemed to have the right idea. "Emancipate yourself from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our mind." It really is true. While religion maybe teaches lessons, and create love and communti it seems too many take into it far more, and consider its teachings as some kind of answer to our unanswerable questions, or even a way to correct their lives. Nothing but overcoming the patterns we have set in our brains can solve this. And while I never claim to have broken such bonds myself, when I look at others who clearly have, it truely inspires me. I love everyone, I have decided, but don't piss me off, or Ill fuck you up muhfucka. I seriously am doen with peoples shit, whether its talking shit or cauding shit or taking a shit, I think the world just needs less of it, altogether. But it seems, if we can work together peace will be acheived, no I'm kidding, there will never be peace, that is just an idealm just like communism. WORKERS UNITE! |
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